One Thousand Word Challenge 201: A Rest at a Beach

There was a strong sense of relief once the beach was seen.

The beach was a quiet one. It usually didn’t see many people on account of the best path not being the one that ran by it, and even then, those who saw the beach mostly walked past. For most trips there generally were far better places to stop. In this particular instance the trip was lengthy and had already crossed a few islands. On one of the more remote islands of a trip as long as this one meant the beach became a good place to rest.

There were a few alcoves along the beach that allowed for easy shelter and the area seemed safe enough; at least they hadn’t heard of anyone having to worry about defending themselves, or disappearing, or suffering from some sort of injury that would be more common in that particular area.

They followed the narrow path down to the beach, weaving their way around trees and rocky outcrops and the beach grew larger as it was approached. It had a fine sand and a moderate slope, and it seemed to stretch a while before it met the ocean. On this particular day the surf was strong, but it didn’t seem dangerous. Toward the back of the beach vegetation grew over the sand, stabilising it more and more, and there was a nice view looking inland obscured by some cliff at one of the beach’s ends.

It was quite idyllic and it was quite isolated.

They eventually reached the beach and made their way to one of the alcoves. Carefully they took off their pack which was much lighter now than when they had left home, and they began to set up for the evening. The alcove’s floor was rocky, thankfully due to being part of a rock platform, and from where they were it seemed like they wouldn’t have much trouble with large waves, or waves of any size for that matter.

As they set up they listened out for anything other than sounds of the beach. They had a good view of it from where they were but they could see no one and they could hear nothing other than what they’d usually hear at a place like this. It helped continue the sense of solitude they’d had for the past week or so. Sure, they had seen various creatures around and they were certain they’d see some more where they now were, but they didn’t seem to impede or press into what they were feeling.

After setting up they went looking for some dry wood lying around. They wanted to boil water and have something to drink and eat something that wasn’t more food fine to eat uncooked, but much better cooked. The previous places they had stayed hadn’t had room to safely start a fire and they were fairly certain that it would be at least another few days until they reached another town, though possibly it would be another week or so; they were on the path that took more time and was often considered less safe. There were a few more bridges they’d need to cross on this island, as well as some to get across the next few. They didn’t want to have to wait for a hot meal at this point, even if it was relatively not that far away.

Eventually they found some broken branches and a good log and they seemed dry enough so they returned to the alcove and got to work. It was not long before they had their billy set up with enough water in it for tea and cooking a small portion of the remaining food they had. They considered going to catch something but they decided against doing so. They were staying only for the rest of the day and the night, and they felt it better to spend less time in the sun, just in case.

As they waited for the water to boil they consulted their map and saw that they were roughly on time. It was still quite a while before they’d reach the city – about a month at the rate they were going – but there were at least a few villages on the way. Maybe they’d take transport when they reached on, reduce the travel time, though they felt that may be too risky. Besides which, there were things along the islands that they wanted to see and going by boat, or even by cart made that much more difficult.

Eventually evening arrived and rain began to beat down on the area. They could see the violence as it drowned everything out; eventually combined with the dark the view itself was mostly smothered. Wind hit the alcove and so, already preparing to in case of unwanted attention, they put the fire out. Not having a light source to use to read or draw, they gradually fell asleep to the sound of the rain, wind and waves heaving and thrashing throughout the dark.

They woke before first light and, despite having had to have slept on thin bedding on a rocky surface, felt well-rested. Perhaps it was their getting used to having to sleep on whatever surface they could. Perhaps it was just fatigue catching up at the right moment.

They started a fire and began boiling water, and drank and ate as they watched the dark and listened to the waves gently lap at the platform’s edge. Eventually first light appeared and they’d soon have to pack up and continue, but they took their time staring out, trying to work things out.

Soon after first light a robed figure appeared somewhere distant along the beach. The figure looked to the waves, then walked toward them. As the figure approached they sat there, unsure as to what to do but kept a knife ready. The figure waved and so they cautiously waved back, and it was not long before the figure was at the alcove.

The time it took to write one thousand words: 34:32:23

Really slow. Much slower than I’d hoped. Realised what I’d written would need to spill into a second thing, then realised that it was due to too much bloat.

Coming back to the worldbuilding thing I’m slowly working on, trying to thread in a bit more narrative. This doesn’t cover much, but I’m filling in bits and pieces. A lot of this is going to be set over a large series of islands, many of which are close enough to reach by crossing bridges. There’s likely to be many small towns / villages rather than large cities, though I want there to be one large city, perhaps as a connecting hub of sorts.

Here are the other rushed bits of writing I’ve done for this thing.

Written at home.

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Hat Hill

Not the best photo of this hill but I think it worked out, at least in terms of framing.

This is Hat Hill. I don’t know why this is hill is known as Hat Hill, though I’m sure I’ll find out at a later point in time when I go back here to take more photos.

There’s something idyllic about this view. It may have to do with the clouds. Not sure.

I hope you enjoy.

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A Poem About Trying to Force Something Out

This is pretty  much as it is.
I was trying to think of something and nothing came so I wrote about trying to force something out when I’ve nothing. The result isn’t anything good, but it works.

I hope you enjoy.

I do not wish to try and force
And so I push and force some more
The nozzle does not drip
I cannot reach the pipes
But I keep on trying to get something out

There’s not a sound so I reach in
I try to pull at something
Even though I can see it in there
It remains out of reach
And I keep trying to force it out

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Jesu: Deflated

One listen for this one.

This is a song I’ve wanted to write about for a while but I feel it’s one that I wasn’t sure I could do well. I think I may have been right about that hesitation, but I imagine that I would have done better had I waited a while longer. Improvement with time and all that.

I think the issue here is that whilst I do get an idea of the song across it took a while to let go, and even then I didn’t let go enough. I think that, other than not being a strong enough writer right now, it also has to do with having strong familiarity with the song.

Jesu’s “Deflated” is from Opiate Sun. The version I wrote about is the demo version which was featured as a bonus track on the Japanese release of the EP. Personally I think the demo version is more interesting due to what was removed for the final version, but maybe that addition didn’t work beyond the demo. It’s also possible that Justin Broadrick was concerned about an overabundance of “solos” on the EP, hence the lack of additional guitar doing something above the main melody on the final version.

I hope you enjoy.

Guitar rings out whilst bass drifts low and percussion stomps. Soon vocals find their way in and seem to float among it all and melancholy finds its way in. Together all the sounds lock into each other and follow a rhythmic flow. They keep it all together through their descent and drift and move with a sense of ease.

Eventually there’s a sort of pause and additional guitar seems to move and phase above the pause. It goes up, down and up and here, there and everywhere. The other sounds have a brief pause before they look once more at descending. The new guitar stops and the descent commences.

Keys now appear as the original guitar, bass and percussion keep their steady pace. The keys highlight and accentuate and something maybe dreamy and fragile, and certainty comes forward. Soon that new guitar returns and once more it ripples and phases, and calmly howls, and everything seems to grow increasingly overwhelming.

Climactic, yet calm this is and it just envelopes all and pulls something out, and touches in a raw manner. It continues to do so, even when the percussion and new guitar pull away, leaving a few sounds to linger on until the song ends.

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Faceless

Another self-portrait.

This was taken at the same time as the one I shared yesterday.
Last night I decided to look over some of the self-portraits I took and play around with them based on the parameters I used for processing a variant of one of them. However, with this one I used parameters for a stuff around I did on a photo I took for a gig I shot near the end of 2022.

It’s quite stylised, I think and that I like. Not anything amazing but in a way I think it raises thoughts about sense of self and identity. At least, that’s what it makes me think of.

I hope you enjoy.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1217: Discomfort in Some Way

The morning drudgery rears its ugly head once more, but of course I’m just complaining so this can be disregarded.

Feels like it will be a warm day. Feels like it will be warm and humid and so once more I will find myself locked into some sort of combat with the weather. Whether I am or not is difficult to completely confirm at this point in time, but I feel it will be the case so it is likely to happen. That’s how it all works and so that is how it is working today.

I think I need a vacation from everything. Just step away from society and the world and slip into another reality for a while where money isn’t a worry and I’m not half a paycheck away from a bad time. That would be nice, but I don’t think I’d be able to relax as I wouldn’t be making money whilst on vacation.

I think I need a more stable job, really.

I think I need a lot of things, but what I really need to do is not sit here so much. Not good for the act of engaging in the process of motion. If I’m sitting here all the time then I’m not doing much of anything really, but sometimes I conjure worlds and in those conjuring of worlds I’m creating some sort of fantasy in which I could escape to, but I don’t want to necessarily escape, though I guess with what I said just above I do want to escape. Not sure where to go from that, really. Kind of covers all the bases.

Well, now that that is out of the way, where do I go from here? I want what is risky for me to take right now and so I’m sitting here and just trying to think of a way to get out of this bit of writing. Maybe looking for change was a bad idea. This is unfamiliar territory and I know not where I can go from here.

Actually, I do know where I can go from here but it’s all scary and that is not something I want to deal with right now. This is not worth the risk. It is not safe. It is not worth the trouble. Take me back to where I feel I am more comfortable. I want to ramble on about things that don’t matter and I want to ramble about things that do matter.

Of course, however, there has been no change whatsoever but I am claiming that there has been change and so therefore I get to complain about something else, but I digress.

I don’t know what to do from here and I don’t know where to go and this is all scary and so on and so forth and I think I’m just going to try and find a rope that will lead me out of these new and exciting frontiers that are ripe for exploration.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:25:76

Alright, so this seems to mostly be about discomfort so I’m going with that.
I feel I got really close to making some sort of point and then veered away, which was silly.

Written at home.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1216: Day Shapes

Fatigue rears its head once more but I can get through it. I can persevere.

Wind and all that, sitting here, feeling warm, feeling cool, feeling a lot of things but the day contorts into shapes I do not recognise. Suddenly it is no longer a day but a series of shapes and now I don’t know what to do with myself.

I guess I’ll just sit here and think about shapes for a while.

Of course that has no practical purpose right now but these shapes are floating in front of me and I need the day to come back so I can deal with work as work is here and I need to take care of it and get it out of the way and I don’t know which of these shapes it is contained within, so… I’m feeling a bit screwed.

I guess there is a practical purpose for thinking about shapes right now.

Anyway, I don’t know how to get them back to being a day and I don’t know how to go about doing anything about this. Most of my thinking will be trying to work out what the shapes are and in doing that I might just be able to find the answer to the problem which will be a key for the lock, but there is no lock so it will be a key for the day.

I can’t sit whilst working this out as I don’t know where my chair has gone and there’s not much of a floor, but I don’t quite like the idea of floating whilst doing this either. Sure, I’m not going anywhere but I don’t feel as though I’m anchored and it’s not a pleasant feeling, let me tell you. It would be more pleasant if I happened to be floating in the sky and there was a breeze behind me and I was going places but that is not what is happening here. What is happening is that I’m floating in nothingness and I’m trying to work out how a day managed to turn into a series of corporeal shapes.

What will happen when the next day comes? This is going to cause a few issues. Surely there are others in the same situation as I am but I cannot see them. There isn’t anyone here that I can locate, but I can’t quite go anywhere, or at least it doesn’t feel like I’m going anywhere so I could very well be here on my lonesome and that is less fun than I would hope.

These shapes are ones I do not recognise and I’m not sure if I could describe them in a way other than that they have a form. They are here in front of me and I don’t know how to make them become the day again and it’s all rather annoying and frustrating, and also a little hopeless. Some sort of despair.

On the plus side, I think they’re quite interesting.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:24:85

It was early into this that I realised that I needed to veer away from what I was writing and so I did. In terms of something better I don’t think it paid off, but it was a learning experience of sorts.

Most, if not all writing can be a learning experience now that I think about it, but in this case… anyway, yeah.

Written at home.

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Self-Blur

I often get strong praise for my photos and I’m glad people get something out of what I’m doing. With that said, I need the praise translating into paid work far more often than it does. Without the income

I’ve been thinking about calling it a day and selling the camera gear. I’ve been taking photos since I was around thirteen, so I’ve had a pretty good run. I love photography, but if I were to stop now, whilst saddening, wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world. However, as said here I’ve decided to kind of tear it all down and rebuild, so to speak.

I think that, regardless of one’s experience, you’re never too good to relearn stuff and rethink your processes.

With that all said, here’s a photo I took recently. I was playing around with self-portraits and motion. I could say that I’m exploring a sense of self, but with this photo I don’t feel that that’s quite the case.

This is my submission into Leanne Cole‘s “Monochrome Madness” for this week. Participating is pretty straightforward and something I recommend. If you do, then include the tag “monochrome-madness” in your post.
If not participating, then at the least check out Leanne’s photography as well as what other people submit.

A lot of what people are submitting will likely end up here.

I hope you enjoy.

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A View Hidden From the Road

Something I like about getting away from the city is that sometimes you get a sense of stillness and solitude. There’s a sense of stillness in this photo, I think, and there also is a sense of solitude.

It’s a vast stretch of land that’s visible, and yet it’s also a pretty small area. A significant portion feels untouched but there’s visible change from human impact.

In the distance large areas are visible. Parts can be made out but they are mostly silhouettes and present as a mystery. The areas are almost illusory.

I hope you enjoy.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1215: Thinking About Outside

Once more the sound of cicadas reaches my ears and once more it is something that I do quite enjoy. It is nice hearing life out there whilst I sit here and procrastinate the day away until I grow ancient and refuse to leave the room due to being so ancient that I know the room far better than I could ever know the outside world.

The reason why I know the room so well? I’ve thought about and analysed it a lot.

Well, to be truthful I only know the room in one way and that is in the way it makes me think about the room rather than knowing all of its properties, though I’d know some of those too… I’d hope.

But anyway, the sound of cicadas is out there, I’m in here and I’m enjoying the sound they produce, and I wish there were more of them. I wish they were louder and drowning out everything. There aren’t enough trees and there aren’t enough cicadas to hold them, and perhaps there aren’t enough birds to chase after the cicadas.

The light glows outside and it is almost overbearing but it does not drain the world of colour, though I’m not sure as to how it would. Maybe it would if a greater presence of light somehow desaturated colour, but as far as I’m aware it doesn’t; at least not in reality.

I think what I have today is a series of thoughts that run around each other and don’t quite connect, but there still is some sort of relation. What that relation is is not something of which I am quite aware, though maybe I am and I’m just overthinking thinking once more.

Anyway, the street is quiet but the cicadas continue their pleasing drone. There is a light breeze and it is there but it is subtle. It’s more apparent at a distance, but now that I am thinking about it and looking out my window a it more it is apparent that the breeze is picking up. It’s not picking up but much and it seems to change in gradual pulses. It also is not something I’m feeling much of so in a way, at least from where I am seated, it seems more suggested rather than stated. It is seen rather than felt and so in a way it seems more like I’m being told that there is a breeze rather than experiencing a breeze.

The light is changing and it is due to the clouds above. They continue their drift and variance in heaviness, and there are a few holes that escape their grasp, but they continue on as they threaten to release themselves and change into rainfall but they do not. They just change the way the light falls upon this area and they drift onward to somewhere else.

The sound of garden machinery spreads out from some location and it cuts into the sounds of cicadas droning and birds chirping.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 08:32:79

Very shortly after I finished this the sunlight became much brighter. From the position of my desk I was unable to see where the gap in the clouds that allowed the sun to shine through was, but it was pleasant.

Anyway, a series of thoughts that are quite clearly connected and more of the relaxed variety, I think.

Written at home.

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